Monthly Archives: July 2010

Well now I’m really Confused…

So… She called me yesterday, to drop some of her problems on me. Then right as I was about to put the final nail in my coffin, Karma came along stopped me.

She finally understands what she did to me. I’m happy about that.

After all the mental barbed wire we went through, I’m not sure how I feel about all of it. I hope she’ll be more mature. Yes, I do miss her, I’d talked about it earlier.

In the end, I felt so bad, for her, that I told her I’d be friends with her, even though I still don’t know how I feel about her.

She told me, she wasn’t changing her mind, even if she did, I don’t know what I’d say.

A few pieces of media that she needs to listen to/see.
Titus Season 1 – The Breakup
Titus Season 2 – The Pendulum
Titus Season 2 – Deprogramming Erin
Kazzer – Go For Broke – For You
Kazzer – Broke – Rikki Dawn
Titus Season 2 – The Test

I think especially Deprogramming Erin and For You.

“Erin, you are a great person! On the surface. But deep down you’re a woman, and women leave!” -Ken Titus

You know, at the same time… I have no idea what I’m doing with this crap. I don’t need any more emotional scars, why would I help her with hers? Good question.

Been Thinking about her again…

I guess this is where I come to talk about it…

Had a discussion about her with my friends. Most of them were on my side. Doesn’t really matter. I started to really miss her. I’d almost like to talk to her, but no matter what, I still refuse to talk to her. She hurt me terribly. I guess it still doesn’t matter. Because she’s out of my life, and last time I talked to her, I told her I’d never want to see her again. That may not be as strong, but I don’t think I could ever forgive her and be friends with her again.

In other news, Johnnie Walker Green Label is an Amazing Scotch. I’m a new scotch drinker, and even I think it’s miles above Dewar’s White Label. Also, Jack is pretty good, burns like hell though. Jim Beam seems to be a fair bit smoother, also less intense. Found out how good¬†Amaretto¬†is as well. It may sound bad, but Amaretto and Pepsi is pretty damn good.

I hate all blondes

Freaking girl on the beach reminded me of her. I hate missing her.

Fuck love, fuck women, and fuck blondes.