Smashing my fists to pulp

When I look up at the sky, I wish I was looking at you.
I reach for the stars, and I remember I love you more.
I breath in, and I want you here.
I breath out, and I realize you aren’t.

I turn away from the light and cry.
As the tears stream down my face,
I realize how I feel…

As my hands ball into fists,
I can barely contain
the rage,
the hatred,
the pain.

I turn towards the tree, and punch with all my might.
I scream and cry as I smash my fists,
but I know, it’s a fruitless attempt,
because when I’m done, and my hands are bloody,
when I fall down, exausted
when I look up at the stars as the world fades to black…

You’re not there…

As the last tear rolls down my cheek before I pass-out
I wish that I could go back, and I know, that can’t be so…
I’m sorry… I’m sorry I’m… So weak…

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Big Things In The Works.

Possibly a new car.

A New laptop has been obtained.

I’ve been working on my car (NEON!!)

Possibly helping my buddy Wolfegang out with some stuff. You know how it is.

Fan-Fic: Mortal Gods! The Return of Deus, Megara and Mirage

He awakened to prodding, and saw the face of a gargoyle. He looked up and saw the Eifle Tower. He swatted at the buzzards, one pecked at him and flew away. He checked his internal chronometer and checked the local times, and then he froze for a fraction of a second as they were out of sync by about 4 years.

Megara stared blankly at  the ghosts surrounding her. She waved them away, and recognized some of the faces. Dodger floated down to her. The tree she lay under, fluttered with the breeze. Dodger handed her a small package, and smiled. Megara could feel what it was before she opened it, and for the first time since her fight with Deus, she smiled.

Mirage awoke in a tube, and it instantly recognized it, as one of the sensory deprivation tanks the members of Echo Mirage used to fight the first crash virus back when it was still being programmed. Raising it’s hands it noticed the simple features of a metahuman arm. It ran a full diagnostic on itself. Nothing seemed to be amis. It looked outside the tube, and saw the outside of the computers it inhabited for so long, and one of the people he had the great pleasure of working with so many years ago.

The stage was set, the gods had returned, time to find out why.

Phantom X and a team of technomancers had caged one of the rouge AI wreaking havoc among megacorps in the matrix. After complete scans, and repeated cage attemps, they found an AI named after the one that almost brought the world to it’s knees. Phantom X had expected more of a fight. It had been easy to “cage” this AI. Whoever this AI really was, he was not the Deus. He was weaker than even the crappiest comm ‘ware. He seemed to have quite a mouth as he sputtered on about destroying X’s mind. Even though he and his team had caught this AI, he couldn’t help the feeling of forbodeing the minute they found this one.

Shadowrunning and BJ’s

Well, This is an update post, for all who care, I’ll be posting the results of Shadowruns with my friends and sister. Thats not really important right now, because we haven’t finished one run yet.

In other news, I work at BJ’s wholesale club. It’s not a bad place to work, but some of the people that shop there are certifiably crazy. Like a Lady that yelled at a supervisor and thought one of the cashiers screwed up her order purposely, got mad and left, and at  the door told the man to go fuck himself. The happy ending is that his last words to her were, “and you too ma’am”. So, the moral of the story is, 2 things, first we don’t want to mess up, because that gives the company a bad rep which hurts their bottom line, and as a result, we get in trouble if we mess up. Second, have a little patience with those of us who work in retail, it might be the best we can do at this point, and we’re not all incompetent, so please, be patient.

Thats all for now.

Bloging… Blogging… Bloggging…

And we’re back!?

Yeah, I know I haven’t typed anything here in a long time. Just as a point of Note. I now accept requests for help on Oblivion. As well as a bunch of the other RPGs. My sister GymGirl540 is an RPG fiend, and she knows what she’s doing, but she doesn’t blog. So if anyone needs help ask me, and I’ll get her to give you the inside dirt.

Also, I’m back online with a new Xbox 360 Arcade. Halo 2 hasn’t lost it’s luster yet. SWAT on Turf and Desolation is still a lot of fun. Halo 3 is fun. Especially the call back to Lockout with Blackout.  I’m happy some of the older maps are making a comeback. No matter what anyone says, COAGULATION is probably one of the Best Halo Maps ever. Another awesome one is ASSENTION, and BURIAL MOUNDS. I really hope they come back. Although of the newer maps… STANDOFF, VALHALLAH, SNOWBOUND, BLACKOUT, and HIGH GROUND are all very fun to play. Of course no list of the best would be complete without ZANZIBAR.

Thats about it. Peace for now.

Pissy Women, and Repaired Accord

Women in my life seem to be premenstrual, or maybe I’m just an a-hole. On the other hand, My car is back in action. New Windshield. Cat-Converter tightened, new Plastic front spoiler

A Tribute to Halo 3…

“Wake me when you need me…” – John 117

“We Will Never Forget” – POWMIA

(Geeky, Deal with it. Not disrespectful. He was a character, that gave us hope.)

Go

Go, the game that has entranced players for centuries, has just gained a new follower.

I am not that good at the game. I only have played one game, and I won by resignation because she was tired of playing me. I’m probably like a 50 Kyu, yes I know, there are only 30 kyu ranks.

I’m trying to learn by playing on the Gova english room server, and the Kisedo Go Servers. Usernames: taylor (on Gova), pGett (on Kisedo). Hope to see you online if you play.

Danny Phantom Reborn – Under New Management

Well, It’s official, DPR is now run by Mabaroshiwou, and PandaJenn. I wish them much luck in their future episodes. I know they’ll make the podcast awesome, so START LISTENING!

Kiss = Man Points

There isn’t much, thats manlier than Kiss. So LISTEN TO THEM.

I met some people Playing Go, that had no clue who kiss was, but they knew Red Jumpsuit Apparatus… I was like, you’re kidding.

Detriot Rock City

I also beat the chick…I guess… We played until she got pissed/tired and resigned… I probably couldn’t beat her again, so a rematch would be appropriate